Check in from the Drip Station

All is fine, blood work was good, treatment is underway. Maybe 1 1/2 hour to go. Dinner last night was postponed by the old friends. Wife and I are looking forward to the new diner shortly.

Saw the doctor earlier today, around 8 am, nothing new, " how u feeling, any reactions we need to discuss, ya-da, ya-da. " Nothing new to report there.

Pretty boring day, cloudy today, cold tonight, low of 38. Thanks for reading, talk later.

God Bless,Captain

Thursday jog in the books

Took a 1 mile jog this AM, about 60 degrees, in the sun, was nice, wanted to go farther but the brain was against me the whole way.  I'm glad I stayed with it and finished jogging and not walking.  Going out to eat with old friends tonight, you can take that both ways.....lol.

Getting the brain set up for chemo tomorrow, then going to try out a new ( to me ) diner in Indy.  Was a write up in the Indy star about great food at low prices, will give you a report afterwards.

You all have a great day, God Bless, Captain

Tuesday Jog in the books

Jogged about a mile today, speeding up about 1/2 thru just for the heck of it.  Felt fine.  Then ate my organic cereal and 2 pcs of toast with strawberry preserves.  Yum, Yum.  I know good food, not so good food.  Oh well, doesn't trying count for anything.

Now anyone who knows me knows that I am not the kind of person who says " the sky is falling, the sky is falling "  but I also believe in looking around and noticing the world around us.  The financial condition of it is what I mean today. The government is out of control, only the rich are getting richer, today we're talking averting another government shutdown again.  There is a web site I like to visit couple of times a week, you might think they are over the top.  http://www.fedupusa.org/  Just read the first article on big banks, and that we aren't going to make it to Nov. 2012 in any way shape or form like today's way of living.

Now I owned my own business for 20 years, and I'm a big believer in if you can't run it successfully, than it should fail.  Nobody should give you more money so you can fail again.  But that is what our government has done with the big banks.  The rich get richer. I'm not better off now than in 2007, food costs more, gas costs more and it's not getting better.

The point of this is a warning to my friends who may have IRA's or money in the stock market.  Try to come to the right decision to get most of your investments into cash.  I'm not saying to close out the account altogether, but just cash so you at least protect that.  If you have $ 300,000 or whatever in stocks and the market start falling you could get hurt really bad.  In the next year your money is not going to become $ 500,000, I know we want to stay in cause we are greedy and think it will only go up.  But look at the market over the last month,  400 point swings on a daily basics is not a stable market.  You could wake up and your $ 300,000 could only be worth $ 75,000.

Now I'm no market guru, but I feel I have to at least warn you all of the possibility's.  If this turns out to be true, you still have your $ 300,000 no more, but no less.  I would feel bad if I at least didn't mention the possibility.  We all know to be cautious of being robbed, mugged and attacked on dark streets.  We may have to take a longer route home, but isn't it safer than the alternative.  Same thing with your money and retirement.

Be careful out there with your money, cause the government will change the rules and take all of it.

Enough, didn't mean to scare anybody, but let's all open our eyes and read the signs before us.

God Bless, Captain

Monday after Sunday Off

Jogged 1.7 mile route, felt fine, better towards the end, started out slow finished slow, but that is ok.  The important thing is to be running again.  Speed is not important at this time, maybe not even down the road.  What's important is to kick this cancer with good shape, and shaken' the hell out of it.  Break it's will to populate and grow.

I'm still basically fine, no outside effects to speak of, I'm the same person.  I seem to get sluggish, sometimes I feel like eating but never get around to it ( guess that is loss of appetite ).  Food is in the fridge, but I don't open the fridge to get it out.  If it's anytime after 1 pm I don't want to eat for fear of feeling full and ruining supper for the wife ( the babe ).  Haven't eaten yet this am and it is 10:45, but I think I will, just don't know what.  Organic cereal with milk or fresh apple salad from yesterday, thinking more on the salad.

Anyways, still working and doing fine, sometimes feeling weaker than normal ( whatever normal is anymore ???? )

Got to go shower and feel clean again.  Hopeing the rain will stop for 24 hours and let the ground dry out some.

God Bless all of you, Captain

Saturday Jog Completed

Day 2 of the comeback is complete.  I have jogged 1 mile each day in this daring comeback from the edge of the cliff.  " I wrote that like a novel, don't take it too seriously."   I think it felt good, cooler weather, nothing is hurting or  injured, so I may as well continue.

Getting ready to shower and the wife is making breakfast, wonder what sounds good???  Oh well, I will eat what is placed in front of me.

See you tomorrow, thanks for all you do for me and others, God  Bless, Captain

Turned off the stock market, feel better..........

Yes, I did make it to the grocery yesterday.  Tried to pull myself away from the computer and the stock market, I wish I was smarter.  When to have the discipline to get out, to sell.

I am going to run or walk in a few minutes.  Now everyone get up off the floor and back in your chairs to check back to see it I really did.  Am just finishing up a cup of green tea, then will be off.

11:50 AM  Ok, for all of those still with me.  Anyone need smelling salts?????

  I just jogged 1 mile, It's been only 2 weeks and 2 days since last running.  I just want to say that I'm trying to get over the whining that's been going on here for the last 2 weeks.  This is a path that I have never had to walk before and obviously I'm going to have to learn how to deal with it.  So first, I don't have chemo today, so I don't know this is feel better for a week time because of no chemo, or can I make a turn and decide no matter what, this is the new old me.

Stay positive, quit trying to think everything thru.  Just do what you have to do, and turn off the darn stock market.  So let's everybody smile and get back to living everyday like the Lord has given us.

Thanks to those who encouraged me, and all for the prayers, God Bless you all,
Captain

Thursday

I finally got the grass mowed, I just had to do it.  I know I talked about it on Tuesday, and anyone who knows my yard knows it only takes about 30 minutes to mow the front and the back.  Told you I had a lack of energy.  Trying to work on going to the grocery right now.

I am feeling better, started getting some energy last night.  Just a sluggishness that sticks with me after chemo, or maybe the cancer eating up energy and strength.  I just don't know.  I guess I'm going to have to get tough and just do things and not think about them for hours on end.

And no right now I'm not running, why you ask?  Who knows?  But overall I'm feeling ok.  I mean there is no pain, I'm thinking there is progress, just slow I guess.  Anyways, I got things to do.......

Thanks for you all, God Bless, Captain

Ok, I'm kind of here

I'm just having a hard time getting motivated.  The week end after chemo was somewhat full of activity, more so for my wife cause I had just had chemo.  Our very good neighbor and friend passed away after 5 yrs of battling the results of a major heart attack.  I went to the visitation and the funeral and it affected me more than ever in the past.  I'm sure it was because of my situation.  My wife sang at 2 funerals over the week end, baked for her Psi Ote Home show, helped the women of the church put on a skit for Women's Sunday activity's and the grand kids dropped by and spent time going out to eat and visiting.

I tried to fall out of their van, but caught myself in time. It caught me off guard, but it shocked them.  I'm sure I will be ribbed for a long time about it, on what not to do. It was because I touched the wrong thing, not because of any medical problem, or loss of brain function.  Just been in a funk, what can I say.  It will pass like many times before.

 So here's a funny to fill out the day, I may mow the grass, but that's not the funny.

18. A woman has twins, and gives them up for adoption. One of them goes to a family in Egypt , and is named 'Ahmal.' The other goes to a family in Spain ; they name him 'Juan.' Years later, Juan sends a picture of himself to his birth mother. Upon receiving the picture, she tells her husband that she wishes she also had a picture of Ahmal. Her husband responds, "They're twins! If you've seen Juan, you've seen Ahmal."

Sorry, thanks for all your thoughts and prayers,  God Bless, Captain

Friday at the Drip Station

The blood work normally taken is fine, now they decided to check the kidney functions test, so we are waiting on those results before beginning the actual chemo. Cool in Indiana last night, around 41 for a low, hi today 64.

For those who remembered, I did find everything and completed the caulking job.

I'm doing fine, just feel slugish after chemo. Closer to having the itching & intestines under control.

Now for the Friday funnies, a friend posted this on facebook and I had to share.


To all the girls who are in a hurry to have a boyfriend or get married, a piece of Biblical advice: " Ruth patiently waited for her mate Boaz." While you are waiting on YOUR Bo, don't settle for any of his no good relatives; Broke-az, Po-az, Lyin-az, Cheating-az, Dumb-az, Drunk-az, Cheap-az, Lockedup-az, Goodfornothing-az, Lazy-az, and especially his third cousin Beatinyo-az. Wait on your Boaz and make sure he respects Yoaz....

Thanks for all prayers and positive thoughts, God Bless, Captain

Here it goes again...........

NO, I don't have any motivation to run today, sorry, end of the story.  I'm trying to get it together to caulk around the french door.  I think I can, I think I can. 

I'm feeling better overall, intestines are working good.  Sorry to all the squeamish people out there.  I have more energy today.  After thinking about yesterday and all my sleep.  I think I might just not be getting enough of it.  Work has been crazy the last 2 weeks.  Monday night I worked overtime and didn't lay down til 608 AM, just maybe that was the reason I wanted to sleep all day, with cancer and chemo being contributors only.

Special note to S#1, I could be available the week of Oct 23 thru the 27th.  Let me know.  

This good news from my blood work that I mentioned on Friday, could mean surgery.  They would want to install a chemo pump inside my abdomen that would inject chemo directly into the liver.

Pros.    Chemo would go right to the cancer area, chemo would not affect the rest of my body, in theory should do more to treat the cancer.  NO ONE has said cure yet and I don't think that is possible, without a miracle from above which is possible.

Cons  Surgery, Dr. said it is somewhat complicated, so pain and suffering, recovery period, out of work, more pain and suffering.  Limit what I can do for awhile. Did I say pain and suffering?

I asked him if this is working and not much side effects, why go thru the pain and suffering, still thinking, it would be a ways off I'm thinking even Jan., 2012.  They want to make sure the liver is working correctly for a period of time, so all the "pain and suffering" and the costs involved are not for naught.

Anyways, I'm going to look for the ladder, caulk, etc and do something outside.

Thanks for being there to talk to.  God bless you all, Captain

No Motivation

I have no motivation to make me get out of this chair to do anything.  Can't figure it out.  Watch the stock market, go take a nap, open a window, go take a nap, take my pills, go take a nap.  What's wrong here?

Sorry to bore you all, but I can't even tell you a joke.

The Washington Post has once again invited readers to take any word from the dictionary, alter it by adding, subtracting, or changing one letter, and supply a new definition.
Ignoranus : A person who's both stupid and an ass.
Inoculatte : To take coffee intravenously when you are running late.
Cashtration (n.): The act of buying a house, which renders the
subject financially impotent for an indefinite period of time.
Intaxicaton : Euphoria at getting a tax refund, which lasts until
you realize it was your money to start with.
Decafalon (n.): The grueling event of getting through the day
consuming only things that are good for you

Readers are asked to supply alternate meanings for common words.


Esplanade, v. To attempt an explanation while drunk.
Pokemon, n. A Rastafarian proctologist
Circumvent, n. An opening in the front of boxer shorts worn by
Jewish men.

ok, that's enough, have a great day

God Bless, Captain

I'm Back

Got a little strength today and jogged 1 mile. Did ok, but my thighs felt very heavy as I jogged. It was cool and should have felt better but we get what we get.  My intestines are working fine with the new stuff I'm drinking.  Just a strength issue over the week end as I recover the first 2 days after chemo.

Will be doing some yard work today preparing for winter.  Not much but some.  Not setting any goals here.

Also got word from the Oncologist doctor that I should take a flu shot this year.  Usually I don't, but he said this is the year and that everyone around me should get one also; As the chemo weakens my immunity system.

That's about all I know, let's all remember those hero's from 9/11 both alive and forever gone.  And remember that others are suffering everyday from battling the dust and the memories.  It will never go away for those that witnessed it.

Live each day that the Lord has made.  God  Bless you all, Captain

Good News

CT scan showed that the cancer has not grown. Also blood work has shown improvement on certain functions, that in the future we may be able to consider a chemo pump. So it looks like the chemo is working. Remember this is a roller coaster of a trip and things change from month to month.

I have about another 30 minutes of chemo today, then the week end to rest. No work tonight.

The daughter and husband joined us today and just left. So now we have some quiet time.

Thanks again for all the prayers, as the Dr. said " whatever you're doing, keep doing it. "

God Bless, Captain

No run today

Ran out of time, worked til 5:30 in the morning.  Slept til 10AM.  Went round and round with the bank on logging into their web site.  It's now 12:15 and need to leave in 30 minutes. 

So short and sweet post today.  Chemo tomorrow.

Have a great day that the Lord has made.  God Bless you all, Captain

Running again, Well jogging

But first one more picture from the vacation, this was taken around the base of the lighthouse, which was at the end of the pier.  Trying to get the family together, just after a monster wave hit the end of the pier.  If you look closely you will notice a man with shorts on and striped shirt, he is shaking water out of his pants because  he just got drenched.  If you click on the picture it will enlarge it and you can see better.

He is on the right side walking away.  Anyways this is the family, and we did not get drenched by a wave.  PS., It took us forever in the dark to write all those names on the lighthouse using different colored pens........lol

Just so you know I jogged 1.7 yesterday, I forgot to come back and post it, and again today I jogged the 1.7 mile route.  It's ok, doesn't feel really, really good yet, but it's ok.  Sometimes I am getting discouraged with all that's going on, but I need to figure I am just starting now with this better running weather, I still have plenty of time.

Tomorrow we go back to the other world.  I have a CT scan @ 2PM.  Just a into the  hospital and back out.  Will learn the results on Friday morning when I go back to the DR. and then to chemo.

Thanks again for all my friends, God Bless you all, Captain

Where Do I Begin????

Notice the wave action and Caroline jumping, she is leaving the earth.

Had a wonderful trip. The grand kids have to be worn out,I feel sorry for them already back in school and day care today, guess that's why they are young. Will try to figure out how to post some pics, or a link to another location. The water was whipped by the winds, " it really was like the ocean " the waves were knocking them sideways. My daughter was seconds away from being drenched by a big breaker at the end of the pier, she had the video running while watching another man get the drenching. Great, great, great time had by all. The daughter and family are already planning the next trip. Sounds expensive to me.........lol

As always, why is so nice to sleep in your own bed? The B & &B was very nice, if I owned it there were some things I would change, but I guess they bought this mansion and fixed it into the present condition in only the last 7 years, so it is still a work in progress. And I'm saying the place was very nice and I would recommend it to any one. For instance, they did not have or offer Wi-fi, the only time to find coffee was when they served it for breakfast, there was no microwave for popcorn, of heating things up, I would have put a TV in the living room area for viewing, all we had was a small 19" thing in our room. Just things I have noticed that would make it better for all guests. Not that I'm a big TV critic.

I will post more later, I have to think about running today, after all this is the weather I've been whining about for over 2 months at least.

And somebody out there brought tears to my wife and my eyes when we checked out. They chose to remain anonymous but they had called and paid for one night of our stay, so we only had to pay for one night. It was totally unexpected, but deeply appreciated and this is the closest I can get to publicly thanking them. But know that it was a great surprise and very thoughtful.                                               THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU....

For now, thanks to all, God Bless, Captain

We're here, doing fine

About a 4 hour trip, with a Cracker Barrel stop. Got here with 1 1/2 til check in. Ate lunch at a German pastry / restaurant, took some pastry home w/us. Walked along the channel pier w/hundreds of swimmers enjoying the water.

Checked in at the Mansion around 3:30 and I took a quick nap,while the wife caught up on college football. Went downstairs to hordsvers then out to eat. Ate at the " Thirsty Perch " so you can imagine what we ate.

Sitting at a coffee house sipping latte, in rocking chairs. Have a great day, God Bless, Captain

Vacation time is here

I know I've not posted for 2 days, but had nothing to say, no running was done, no chemo to attend and I slipped up sorry.  My life is not that interesting, but I'm here to talk to you.

The wife is yelling " Get off that dang computer and let's go "   So I must leave you now, but she doesn't know about the new tablet that I bought so's I can keep up with you on secret posts while on vacation through the magic of WI-FI.  Who knows what that is, but it seems to work.

Have a great 3 day week end, cause I will.  God Bless you all, Captain